Dear brothers and sisters, today I would like to share with you my experience with just how quickly you could lose the opportunity to bring home a brother or sister, to bless a brother or sister or simply take the honour in doing the work of the Lord.
My fiance needed a new pair of shoes for work as he started a new position on a wine estate, the shoes he was using was not suitable for that kind of environment. We then got him a new pair that would be durable for the long term and decided to bless someone with the shoe's that are still in very good condition when it has been placed on our heart's to do so.
Two weeks went by and still it was in our possession, there were many times I would tell my fiancé to put It in his car and should he see someone that may need it, he would then have the pair of shoes with him (being impatient as always). My fiancé would go about it the long way and that would frustrate me even more and end up leaving It, so we went by another week keeping the pair of shoes.
The day least expected of course, the day I had so much running around to do with no time on my hands, God tells me in the last rushing minute, where I'm just about to lock the door to my house with my hand's full, He said "Everything you're holding, put it down and place those shoes in your car, today there will be someone that needs them." (God's timing) Without hesitation, I immediately put down everything my hands were occupied with and placed the shoes in my car. There is a homeless man I drive past every day on my way home and whenever I drive to that robot with the intention to bless him, something happens to prevent me from doing so and today I thought I had it all figured out, it must be for him, I thought. Driving to town I went past that robot, looking for this homeless man but did not see him, I thought to myself that I will probably see him a little later during the course of my running around and then I will give it to him on my way home. Being careful, I placed the shoes in my boot so there is nothing to tempt anyone's eye in my car, I did all I needed to but forgot something important at home that needed to fetch,off I went to get it, on my way home I saw the homeless man I had been looking for and out the window I shouted "sorry!!!" he looked back at me and walked away, as though he thought I was apologising to him for driving past him, I shouted "sorrrry!!" again as I did not know his name, he didn't look back at me the second time and that's when I realised that there is a reason he did not come over and me sitting in traffic with the shoes in my boot would not help either, then I realised that he was not the man God spoke of that morning.
Driving back to the mall, I did all I needed to, completely forgetting about the shoes in my boot, a man approached me and started with telling me how he needed R2.00 to stay in a shelter for the night etc, I slowly went into a daze, I didnt hear a word he was saying, it was not long and I cut him short asking him what size shoe he wears, something was different about that question asked... those words crossed my lips before it crossed my mind. He looked at me confused and asked me to repeat my question to him, after asking him what size shoes he is again, he answered "9 or 10". I smiled at him knowing the reason for that oddness of my question was revealed to me, the pair of shoes in my boot were a size 10. I got out my car and said to the man "God told me to put these shoes in my car for you this morning". The man looked at me with shock, he looked down at his tightly squeezed shoes that hardly fit his feet, he could not believe what he was hearing. I spoke to him for a while thereafter and told him that God loves him, that God wants him to come home, that God wants to take care of him with more than shoes, I told him to pray, to speak to God and let God know that he wants to leave the situation he is in and believe etc. The man's eye overflowed with tears, he told me "I know this is true, I know this is true" with his hands open in the air, not knowing what to do or what to say, after sharing God's love with him, I gave him money, I told him that I know he would use that money for the good, he gave me his word that he would go buy food and that I could walk with him to witness it. I told him that I have faith in him to use it for the good without having me there to witness it. With that, I reminded him again that Jesus loves him and wants him to come home, I reversed my car to a man with in tears, a man not knowing how, where and when to start, he looked at me whilst I drove off, crying inside and out with this good news he had just heard.
As I drove off, the Lord spoke to me, the Lord told me that I did well up until I took steps out of Spirit and into flesh. I didn't understand what this had meant at first and then driving home, the Lord displayed the man's face to me, over and over again, my heart felt a kind of sorrow I have never felt before. No sadness in this world could describe what I felt. I immediately started praying, pleading for forgiveness, pleading for that man's life to be touched in the Name of Jesus, the sorrow was so deep, the only peace I had was to continue praying for that man. When I got home I started preparing dinner, the Lord put an uneasy feeling on my heart, it didn't stop, it just got worse. In a split second I turned off my appliances, grabbed my phone, locked my apartment and jumped in my car, I had to go and find that man, I had to find him and do what I should have done for him in the parking, I needed to pray for him!
I drove to the same parking I had last seen the man, only to realise I had left my purse at home when impulsively running out of my apartment and now had no money to pay for parking, for those of you that know Stellenbosch, there is NO free parking ANYWHERE. None of these car guards will have grace for a girl that tells them its to pray for a man in this student town thats for sure. I parked on the other end of town not anywhere near the parking as that's the only parking giving me the first 5 minutes free. I ran as fast as I could to the mall's parking where I had met this man, I kept running, looking at every homeless person, seeking his face, looking everywhere in that parking, around every corner and every alley desperate to find him, praying for God to cross our paths once more... but I had no luck in finding him anywhere. I ran back to my car and made it just in time for the 5 minutes with great sadness in my heart.
As I drove home, I found it impossible to let it go and searched every street, every person's face, looked in every shop I drove past hoping to see him, I couldn't forgive myself for missing this opportunity God had presented to me with this man. I kept praying with great regret, I was dearly sorry. When I got home I phoned my mum to pray with me as I needed spiritual support. I explained to my mum what had happened, I explained to her what I felt God had taught me from this very dear lesson I had learnt today and then we prayed. The prayer brought peace over me and my mum brought to light something very beautiful, being so sorry I did not realise that God has started me off in His learning school for His great ministry's work in my life, which we will get back to in a bit.
My dear brothers and sisters, the lesson I learnt today is just how quick we can act in flesh even when we start off in spirit. That man needed me to pray for him much more than he needed money from me. If I had not stepped out in flesh, I could have given that man Jesus. When I think of that man all I see is his tear filled eyes, crying out for help but he has no idea what to do with this wonderful news I had just shared with him, instead I placed money in his hand and drove off.
Brothers and sisters, when you have been granted a position unknown to you in your work environment you don't get told how wonderful it all is and how well you can do only to be walked away from and you're expected to know where or how to make a success of it without any knowledge given to you. You get trained, you get shown the ropes, you're given support, encouragement and given the knowledge to start somewhere. So God expects of His children to go about with His lost children. When I gave that man the good news and thereafter I gave him money and drove away, God shook His head at me. That man could have an addiction to alcohol, drugs, cigarettes and there I was giving him the greatest news ever heard with no knowledge of how to gain it, no support in praying with him but possibly encouraging the devil to sway him from it and use the money for his addiction.
DO NOT LOSE HOPE!!! God has a training school for His children. He is training me in His training school, The most serious level I have yet reached with God. I have surrendered myself fully to God and that has placed my life in a world of opportunities to work for the Lord. Praise the Lord!!! I have much to learn, God is working on my weaknesses with these lessons, by today's lesson I can see it will be difficult. Today, I feel as though I have learnt the highlight of any lesson to come, to be utmost sensitive to the voice of God in EVERYTHING you do, for when we are saved we are dead to flesh, we are reborn in spirit and that is how we should live in every moment every day. My prayer for the error I have made is that if it is in God's will for that man to cross my path again that I be lead in the spirit in everything I say or do but also that if it is not in God's will for me to cross paths with him again that his life is touched in Jesus Name by another opportunity. Let us pray now.
"Father God, I thank You for the honour in sharing this beautiful message with this group today, Lord I thank You for You unconditional love and merciful grace over each each and every one of us. Lord, it is easy for most to tell us that we are only human, let that not comfort us in the fleshly steps we may take but let us be drawn into deep prayer and the forgiveness You grant us Lord. Lord we so easily forget, we are so quick to step out of Spirit and we are so fast to think we've got this, forgive us Lord, make us humble, that we may be faithful sevants in Spirit Lord. We thank You for this wonderful journey in Your learning school, different to one another but growing strong in the same God, grant us the sensitive hearing to Your voice Lord, give us strength and open our hearts to work within us that we may work through the Spirit and not of flesh. We pray this in Jesus Name, Amen."♡
(Matthew 19:26) “But Jesus looked at them and said to them, ‘With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
(Romans 8:6) "For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace."
(Galatians 5:17)"For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do."
(2 Corinthians 4:16)“Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day.”
(Philippians 4:13)"I can do all things through him who gives me strength. "
(John 5:19)"Therefore Jesus answered and was saying to them, "Truly, truly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, unless it is something He sees the Father doing; for whatever the Father does, these things the Son also does in like manner."
(1 Samuel 10:6)"Then the Spirit of the LORD will come upon you mightily, and you shall prophesy with them and be changed into another man."