I'm not sure how this works, I guess I can freely post without judgement? I hope so.
So lately, I've been so distraught! God and I are on two separate universes, it sucks so bad. I hate feeling far from God. And I've honestly wanted to just leave this world lately, not in a suicidal way - just in a way of not wanting to be apart of this world anymore. I mean, I feel like corruption is literally knocking at every door of my life. I feel like sex, alcohol, drugs, cussing, cigarettes, etc are in your face 24/7 no matter whatcha do. There is this new coffee shop that opened up around my house called "java divas." They give you your coffee dressed in lingerie. Songs that play on the radio have cuss words everywhere and they talk about oral sex, or whatever. It just makes me sick, and I'm getting to an extreme of anger and bitterness towards the world :/ l love the Lord God with my whole heart, and even though I feel far from Him I'm still striving to try and be exactly how He wants me to be. I just feel so alone in being a Christian in today's society outside of my church and youth group. I go to a secular college, and there is corruption all over that too. We're called to bring the good news of the gospel but I just feel like its a lost cause to even mention it when everyone is so caught up in the world. I feel like I sound terrible. I'm just at a loss for words I guess. There's just bad stuff everywhere it seems like. I know this is what the bible says to expect, but its crazy how bad things are getting. I feel like giving up on being a Christian lately, and I keep finding myself questioning the validity and legitimacy of Christianity. It's just bringing me down :/ Any advice or suggestions? <3 you all.