I'm not really sure if it's just the end of year chaos and busy schedules, or the change in my routine but the past week I've been really stressed!
I just recently got a part time job and the work is very physically demanding. When I first started I really hated it and decided after the first few weeks I was unhappy. I really wanted to quit as I thought happiness was the one thing I needed to serve. So, I asked God to take this problem away. Instead of asking for strength and patience, I asked for relief, happiness and an escape. However, because I was focusing so much on myself I was really starting to stress even more. God didn't seem to be doing much, so I thought it would never go away.
However, after reading a chapter from Haley's book 'God Girl' about true happiness, I realised I was doing it all wrong. I was so unhappy because I was focused on taking the problem away instead of asking for strength in Christ. I realised that my actions had proved that I wasn't trusting God at all, and instead I was listening to lies that told me I wasn't good enough and that he wasn't enough. God was putting me through this for a reason and he was teaching me a valuable lesson. I had to trust him. Theres a verse from Isaiah 64:8 and it says, "But now Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, and you are our potter. We are the work of your hands."
This verse reminded me that God was moulding me into something better than what I already am. He was creating me into something I couldn't understand, but he would reveal later on. After praying some more, I starting casting my burdens onto him and trusting that the day and the week would work out exactly the way he intended. Eventually the stress started fading away and his presence became stronger. I went to work believing that he would work through me and touch the people around me. I went to work so that God could bless others through me, instead of me hoping I could get something out of it.
On that note, I now put my trust in him, especially when times get busy!