Knowing yourself in Christ and giving up all else for him.
Please read this. It took a lot of courage to write out.I've been a Christian all my life but about a year ago I sarted to back slide a bit. I started getting wrongly involved with boys, being rude to my parents, and so many other things. I new it was wrong, and I was proud of it. I liked being bad, liked getting the thrill it gave me. I was always at home with my fam n' we did everything the same, so this was at least one thing that was different. But I started to feel unsafe. I felt nervous I would die before I had a chance to make up with the Lord. But everything the world offered me was so much fun, and I didn't want o give it up. I wanted to wait until God did something amazing to bring me back to him. I was waiting for him to speak to me from heaven, or for him to bring someone to witness to me. But what I didn't notice was that that was what he was doing the whole time. Only it wasn't some random person in the shops or at church. It was my family and friends. The whole time they had been praying for me and encouraging me to come back to God. But I had been to blind to see this. My mom had been buying me all these devotional books and verse books and little cards with verses on them , which I never used to use or appreciate. But then one day she bought me And The Bride Wore White. We worked through it together and I started opening up to God, confessing all that I'd done and telling him I was sorry. By the end of the book, I was like I new person. I had recommitted my life to Christ and had sarted following him again. It's like you couldn't stop me. It was all I wanted to do.After I had come back to God, I expected every trouble in my life to go away, because now I was with GOd so he wouldn't be giving me troubles to try get me back to him. But it seemed like it was going the opposite way. All of a sudden my friends would hardly ever talk to me and the guys I new from before only wanted my body, not a friendship. I was also haing trouble giving p the stuff of the world and replacing it with God; and I thought this was God. But then I Realised that it was just the devil giving me a hard time, trying to take me back to who I was before. So I decided that instead of listening to those lies, I would listen to God and fill myself with him. And now I am the happiest I've ever been. What people jink doesn't matter so much to me because i know that God loves me and that that's all that Matters.Im really trying to be the GodGirl he wants me to be, and to honor him in everything I do. I would really appriciate your prayer because I can't do this by myself. I have to have Gods held, or I won't succeed.